About a loved one — The Person I Can Never Let Go

“You are the poem I never knew how to write, and this life is the story I have always wanted to tell.”

Maybe you are the best thing that ever happened to me.

Firstly, I want to thank you from the core of my heart for always being there for me. When I needed support the most, you stood by me, cheering me, pushing me, guiding me, prioritizing me, and leading me down the right path when I was falling apart.

You have been that one person in my life who made me feel like the luckiest just by having you beside me. When no one else believed in me, not even myself, you believed in me like no other.

More than anything, you have loved me in ways you never explained, and I am grateful for that. You loved me for who I am, without conditions or expectations.

But I was so caught up in my own struggles that I never truly considered your feelings the way I should have. Yet, I cared for you deeply. Even now, I still do. We have been really good friends, haven’t we?
You were the right person, just at the wrong time in my life.

Even though I never acknowledged your feelings, you never left. You kept loving me, trusting me, and supporting me. The memories we made together feel so precious to me.

Remember?
Listening to Perfect together? Me crying and telling you all my problems? You sharing yours? The way we understood and supported each other?
You have always been a shoulder to lean on and to cry on! And I miss that.

And now… I know you don’t have feelings for me anymore. I know you are doing okay without me. You don’t care for me the way you once did.

But I don’t know why, I feel like I need you now more than ever because of my current situations. Still, I don’t want to be selfish and come back to you only when I need you. Maybe the truth is, I need you every single day in my life.

But I also know I don’t deserve you.
You are special, different, and worthy of so much more.

I found peace in talking to you, in sharing everything with you. When you were with me, I felt comfortable. The things we shared, the stories we told each other, they meant the world to me.

Since the day we stopped talking, something has been missing in my life.

You were there in my happiest moments, and you were there in my saddest ones.
We know so much about each other, and that is why it is so hard to let go.

I never wanted to lose you. I never had a reason to walk away, yet somehow, we drifted apart.
I wish I could go back to the days when things felt right.
If I am lost, I will look for you between the pages of my favourite memories.
We stopped talking, but my heart still whispers your name in its quietest moments.

You were more than just a friend. You were my human diary.
You felt like home, a home far away from home.

You are everything I ever wanted. You are everything I wished for.

So yeah…
I am still here.
And maybe, I will always be here.
Waiting for you and Loving you!